i don't want no tears
too many painfull thoughts
too many heartache

i don't ask for tears
fights and another pain

but if loving you comes with it
then i'll take it all
with all my hopes
and i'll fight for it
with all my strenght




04.05.07 22.54
for you, as always

aku, airmata dan hatiku
aku yang terluka
aku yang menangis
aku yang berairmata

aku, kau iris dengan senyum
dan kau tetesi airmata
aku, kau tanamkan cinta dengan dalam
lalu kau cabuti satu persatu
tak kau hiraukan darah yang mengalir

dan kau pergi menutup luka yang lain

tak kau hiraukan
aku, airmata dan hatiku





end of april 2007

lately the happiness doesn't bring any laughter
and the sadness doesn't bring any tears
even the hurt doesn't give me any pain

who am i to You?

i felt my strenght
and i also felt Yours
i am dependent

i am Yours

so i sat on my knees
laying my head down on the ground
praising You

You are everything

thank You for life
thank You for everything
thank You for myself

gasp...

gasping...


choked, choked, choked


can't breath

can't taste the air

can't live


help..





need you..















help..




























*sigh

i need surprises
i need changes and suddeness

i need surprises

to even love you more

i found you
i finally found you

the affection that i always need
the affection that i have to share
the similarity on it


oh, how small that is
just a kiss kiss
and a hug

oh, how small that is

but i finaly found my match...




damned you for making it hard!

friday.may 4.2007 23.14
overheard myself talking to the sacred soul in the ceiling of my room
she asked too much

>>do you ever wonder... how much's the price of yourself?
>>do you ever know how much is enough for yourself?

the sacred soul laughing haha but she barely even listen

tick tock and 23.14 became 23.57
she kept talking and talking and really doesn't want to hear
sometimes people just need to be selfish, really need to
she kept asking too much

>>do you ever think, really think hard, that you don't deserve these?
>>do you ever feel, does he worth all the fights? all your pain?
>> does he?

the sacred soul still laughing haha and started to leave, it's all a big joke
but it's not funny for her...
haha!